i'm hoping that most of my blog readers know this by now (as most of you are my donors) but in case you dont (first i'm sorry for not getting the news to you sooner and second) i'm staying in germany. the plan as of now is to be in germany till july/august and then move somewhere new to take a higher position in young life as of summer. some of the places that have been thrown around are japan, south korea, delaware, colorado or san ramon. now normally i wouldnt be this honest in a blog (not that i lie to you all, its just normally not the place that feel is appropriate to share the deepest desires of my heart, however, i feel like i really need the prayer on this one) my greatest desire (concerning a young life placement) is and has always been to come "home" (seems silly saying that after my last post) but i want to come back to san ramon and start young life here. i have for quite sometime. the problem is the economy sucks. bad. and there is no money to hire me. and there hasn't been. and i thought God had closed that door, and i had a peace about that. but now that door is open again, not very wide...but open. and i dont know if God is telling me to walk through it or not. and this is where i need so much prayer as i just dont know if my heart can take it if that door closes again (i know i have to trust that God wont give me more than i can handle but its still hard). there is nothing i desire more than to be at the center of God's will for me but this keeps popping up, in my heart, in my prayers, in by head. but there are like a million obstacles, a lot of people have to say "yes" and even if that happens there is still no money so id have to raise it. and i trust that God can provide but it's a Lot of money.
so pray for me. pray for my heart, not that God would protect it but that my greatest desire would be for the things God has for me (be it san ramon or elsewhere). and if it's here (san ramon) pray that God would provide. i know He's bigger than money and bigger than the economy and that He provided for me to get to germany. but it's a lot of money so i feel like that necessitates a lot of prayer...and maybe some rich friends :).
thanks.